Here I am.

So, my mum changed my password on facebook, so I can't go on...and so here I am...ON  MY BLOG :) 

I really should be do homework, but I'm really not in the mood for any shit right now. 

I'm not in the mood for anything at the moment actually. hmm. 

but this picture is pretty :) 

I think these photos are absolutely amazing!! I wish I could do something like this. I found these on flickr. The link to the photographers photos is...

http://www.flickr.com/photos/maramelie/page7/

The ones I have put here are only a few of the gorgeous photos she has taken. Enjoy :) 

My beautiful best friend comes back today :) 

worst feelings in the world.

• Being told that someone is better than you
• Knowing that you’re being lied too, and knowing you weren’t worth the truth
• Crying hard
• Loosing someone close
• Watching yourself get beaten down
• Falling apart cause your alone
• Being alone cause your falling apart
• Feeling like your not good enough
• Being told she’s prettier
• Being mad at someone because your mad at yourself
• Being told you are fat
• Breaking up
• Being used
• Changing for somebody else
• Realising that they don’t love you and probably never will
• Falling asleep alone when you know someone should be next to you
• Knowing you have to give up on something, when it was all you ever wanted.

I'm so lonely.

GOOD LUCK PEOPLE TRAVAILING FOR SPORTS :) MAKE US PROUD 

Why?

I often question myself, why do I  even bother blogging? It's not like anyone reads this! And to the small portion of people who do read this, why do you read this? To be honest, all this blog is, is just some pictures and posts that make no sense to anybody but me. Perhaps this blog would be better on private - meaning only I could look at it. But then again, after I've question myself...I answer myself. 

I blog because sometimes when theres no one I can talk to in the real world, this blog is always here for me. I can tell it anything, and I don't expect to be judged. 

Plus, it feels kinda good knowing that those few people who do read this blog, know a little bit about what goes behind my smile, and behind my thoughts. I just hope that I always will have a few people reading this, so I know I'm not alone.

 I've wanted to change my URL to this blog for some time now, but I always hesitate in fear that those people who look at my blog, won't be able to find it again....and soon, once again, I'll be the only person here. So thank you :) To those few people who do look at my blog occasionally. It means so much to me, and as long as I have those few people, I will continue blogging. 

bleh. 

REVIVE ME!

So yesterday, and this morning, a few of my friends and I kinda got fully into Call Of Duty -  black ops. OMFG! It's soo fun! We had it on zombie mode, and we got fully into it :) Hopefully, next time I play with the guys, they won't criticize me! hehehe ;) 

:)

AHHH, yesterday was a good, good day :) 

I love him :) 

FRIDAY NIGHT - WOOOH.

So yesterday was the MS showcase, and stuco was selling pizza, donuts, and drinks. Thinking I was organized, I ordered the pizzas the night before for 8 pm.....they didn't arrive -.- We called them about 8 TIMES, and they said 'aww, we'll come at 8.45' Only in Malaysia! I was so frustrated and MAD! If you can't do your job, then what the fuck are you here for?! Finally they arrived, but it was too late, so we sent 16 pizzas back. Dominos, all I can say is, fuck you.

You suck. 

“A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have” 

SHHHHH! Oh wait, you tell anyway.

Can no one keep a secret anymore?! Let alone, TELL OTHER PEOPLE SOMEONE ELSE'S SECRET! This just upsets me, and I mean super upsets.If it's something important to me, and a secret to me, and I've told you, DON'T TELL OTHER PEOPLE!!! It's a fricking rule in life! Thank you!!!!!!!!!

Happiness and other things.

So, I've been thinking to myself a lot lately about things. About always being there for someone. I'll admit, I'm there for many people in my life, and I always try to help them through any of their problems. But how far do you go for someone? What if they've made the same mistake again and again. You've tried to help them, but what if you just can't deal with it anymore? What if by helping someone else, you're hurting yourself?

Occasionally I feel this way, and I know a few people who do feel this way at the moment. And it hurts to see and feel. 

What I've decided is that you SHOULD be there for someone, and you should help them, but if you start to become the one who is hurting because of the help your giving, then stop. This may sound selfish, but your happiness is most important, and once you're happy, then focus on other peoples problems. 

I know that the friends I am thinking of who are going through this, and maybe even me, should just take some time for yourself. Think about your happiness for once, not others. :) It will make you feel better. 

Trust me. 

KJSADHKASJHFKSDJFHSDK;JFHSLKDJHBGLKSDJFGLSKAJDHFSD. NOTHING EVER GOES RIGHT. KAJHSDLKAJSHDLKAJSHDLKAJSHALSKJD

I want 'us' to work out. I honestly do. 

Please keep faith.

Faith is a knowledge within the heart, beyond the reach of proof.

-- Kahlil Gibran

Australia ; Warrnambool

First week.

Is it just me or has this first week of school gone by so slowly? So much has happened, good and bad things. I'm exhausted!!!!! Last night was Spirit night - great spirit everyone -.- :P haha. but I also had dance practice till midnight which was very fun :) Last night, I was in a weird mood - just a tad sad. And for no particular reason. I wish I knew the answer sometimes to my feelings, but I don't, and I've got to accept that. This is a random post, filled with random things. But their my thoughts and so I'm just laying them here for you. :)

p.s I'M UPDATING MY BLOG NOW!!!!!!

UPDATE.

I haven't been on my blog in ages! SINCE BEFORE XMAS! A lot has happened since then. I just want to say that I'm still here and I haven't forgotten about this blog. This new year has brought a lot of change, which I still can't decipher if they're good changes. I'm doing okay. Not great, but okay. I'll edit more soon, but right now I just need some time to think about things. Don't forget about this blog, because there is still more to come. Promise.